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Understanding Vulnerability

I left class early to stand up for a cause i believed in, so I wasn't able to see the Ted talk that we watched in class. I can talk about being vulnerable though. I suck at it. I'm horrible and I most definitely don't have the the tools it takes to change that, so I work hard everyday to build that confidence. I found out that my grandmother died over this past break and it made me realize how much we take things for granted. I wasn't willing to put myself out there and experience "vulnerability" because of my fear of getting rejected...again. My grandmother was my biological father's mother and quite frankly the only connection I had with that side of my family. My father is serving a life sentence in prison. Right now I feel lost and alone. I don't really know what to do about it. I guess you could say that by sharing this information with you all, I'm being vulnerable. I've always been able to express my truest thoughts through words, but to say anything out loud...I couldn't do that because I don't want to appear weak. I just want to be strong for everyone and I tend to put my own feelings on the back burner. I'm learning how to balance myself and others, and learning that I should probably be putting myself first. I can't be the best I can be if I'm ranked last in my life. I yearn for the ability to be vulnerable, but my pride stands in the way. Maybe when I figure it out I won't feel like the walls are closing in. Maybe then I'll be free from my mind.

The Power of Introverts

• Societal views on introversion are that of "weird" and "awkward" if you don't talk, especially in group settings. This is difficult for me to identify with because I, myself, am an introvert. I think it's also because you may be the one who encourages other introverts to speak up as well. You could lose a unique opinion without introverts. Introverts often have an eclectic mind and without that perspective you could lose the "leg up" that you otherwise would have gotten had that person not been included! Being an introvert myself, contrary to popular belief. I've learned when or when not to share my opinion and it usually depends on how passionate i am about the subject. often times it's just easier to let everyone bicker and then make your point after it all dies down. I don't really like conflict. I'd rather be involved with the process of conflict resolution. 

DPS

Dead Poets Society was an amazing movie. I've seen it before, but it's funny that you can take the same movie, watch it in a different setting, and get a completely different outlook. This time when i watched the movie, I took away the parental pressure that was put on the children to succeed. It's so easy to say yes to everyone just to please them, when in fact we just want to say NO. We just want live our how we want to live them because eventually the people we are trying to please won't be around and then well be stuck with the lives we didn't want in the first place. When you live for other people, you end up in a really dark place. One that is so scary, when you look in the mirror you don't even see yourself anymore. All you see is the people that are doing their best to live vicariously through you. Seeing their dreams and aspirations come true, even though they'll promise you that it's all for the best and that they just "want the best for you". In leadership, some people are collaborators and others are dictators. I think that it's healthy to have a balance of the two; however, it is ultimately up to that person to choose which one they want to be. It is up to you, my friends, to choose who you want to be because in the end, YOU will be the only one living your life. You might as well make the best of it and enjoy it.

The Dangers of a Single Story...

So... I work for the Office of Student Life, Sorority and Fraternity Life division. I have been working here for almost 3 years now. I have 3 supervisors when I first started. Around my second year of me working there one of my supervisors left to go to Law School and we got a new one. I have always been skeptical of people I don't know and I didn't see a reason not to be skeptical now. I didn't really give the new lady a chance and that wasn't fair. She did a lot of things differently and at the time I didn't think she was as cool as my past supervisor. We were very close and I knew it would be hard to find a work relationship that I had with my other supervisors in a brand new person. I know this isn't the ideal situation, but I think it's important to know that often times we can create our own first impression. I know that our preconceived notions can cause biases that cause other people to act out of the ordinary. We can make people feel so uncomfortable without intent, but it can have a huge impact.

MY Ideal Leader...

I'm struggling to write about a famous person that I view as a leader because I was taught to never idolize and the only person that comes to mind is Jesus. I think he's a perfect choice because in order for him to truly lead, he had to go through some situations. Believing in an entity that you believe to be "real" allows room to have faith and trust that no matter the task, the leader is capable. I think that the greatest part about God's leadership is that he has many followers and he's always putting others in a position to exceed expectations. An essential part of being a leader, is that you are able to listen attentively. Who better a leader then to talk to then someone that will listen without interruption, interfere without warning, and make a way when you thought there was in fact none. Someone I know from one of my Leadership Course stated that " a leader is anyone who makes an impact on your life and influences you for the better. They might not always be prominent, or have a huge title, but they never stop making a difference. They never stop trying to figure out what they could be doing to give back.  This led me back to the fact that Jesus does what he does for our lives, involuntarily, and that even though we may ask for his help, he let’s us bump out heads so that we can learn.  Jesus,  lets us bump our heads sometimes so that we’ll learn from our mistakes and apply what we learned to future situations, just like any other good leader would! Jesus is an inspiration and the reason why I always want to make an impact on the ones around me. The best leaders lead in silence.                                                                              

“The worst loneliness is to not be comfortable with yourself.” — Mark Twain

I tend to start out with the basics. People only really want to know things of that nature anyway. How often do you meet someone and they ask..." No wait. Who are you really?" Yeah...that never happens, so on behalf of the fact that I absolutely love blogging. I've decided to share an entry with you all...this one is near and dear to me. Like I said, back to the basics. My name is Adrienne Nicole Poe-Hinton and I am a 5th year Psychology major here at The Ohio State University. I'm a former student athlete (OSU Women's Soccer). I'm also an Alum of Alpha Phi Sorority, Rho Chapter. My passion for learning and impacting my peers led me to the Office of Student Life, specifically Sorority & Fraternity Life. Which leads me to the lovely subject that we call, work. I applied to be an Office Assistant in the aforementioned office and have been working there for 2.5/3 years now. I enjoy higher education and would love to pursue it as a career. People, that's right, YOU are my passion. The following entry summarizes...who I think I am...not what you may see in front of you, but what's underneath....beneath the surface...simply put... "Who I am...Really: 

"I wonder if I am forgetful..I wonder if people will remember me…the words I say…the smile on my face…maybe it’s the lack of effort I put into the way I dress…I enjoy being comfortable in the skin I am in…I don’t miss the me I was because I’m in love with the me that I am becoming…I grow stronger each and everyday…no excuses…no regrets…I try to stand out but honestly I’m pretty ordinary…I tend to do my own thing…beat to my own drum…in your 20s…you’re only worried about the now…not too worried about the future…guys worry about their future jobs…women worry about their future husbands…I, however, worry about…everything…my today, my tomorrow, my forever…when the truth is…I’m never going to know everything…I’m never going to have enough information to be satisfied enough to even begin to feel comfortable…& I’m okay with that…I think. Finding comfort in those around you is a scary thing…because they won’t always be there to pick you up when you fall…they won’t always be there for you…they won’t always...just be…we all have to spread our wings one day…to fly…either to another journey in life…or to be with God…I love writing so that one day either I, or someone else, can see my thoughts…my most intimate thoughts…I once said that the greatest gifts anyone could give me were: intellect, insight, & experience…i meant that…there is no greater love than from those who help you grow & walk further & further in your purpose…Life is a beautiful thing…such beautiful buildings…people…places….life has so much to offer…if only we we're all willing to receive it…nothing is perfect, but there’s so much beauty in what life would consider to be “the ugliest things”…rediscover inner beauty….all of the treasures…if not you…then do it for someone else & if you ask me…that’s all that matters. I think it’s safe to say that i get bored easily…I’m the type of girl who likes a challenge & when the challenge is over…sometimes my interest subsides…I don’t like to be bored…if I could pick one thing to keep in my life…I would choose to keep the feeling of adventure and the feeling of excitement to go along with it…that’s why I’m afraid of routine…routine makes for a pedantic & boring life…I believe we were put here in life to make a difference…How can I make a difference if I’m doing the same thing every day. Even if the change or impact is small…it would make me happy to touch the life of even just one person…I don’t want to leave this life wondering “what if” I want to leave saying…”that was a great ride”…I want to say that was amazing!…I want to say…thanks for the memories…I’m changing…what I want is changing…where I want to be in 5 years is changing…change is something I used to HATE…now change is my best friend…my favorite bible verse is the Serenity Prayer: “God grant me the serenity to accept the things I can’t change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference.”… Serenity. Courage. Wisdom….it speaks to my heart & It has gotten me so far. I’m truly thankful.   Best Put...This is who I am. :)"